You Are Who You've Been Looking For
by Adam Roa
You are, who you have been looking for So, stop looking for more unless you look in the mirror, because it is about time you see clearly you are, who you have been looking for. And that empty feeling you got That howl in your chest, you only got that feeling, because you think you are not blessed with everything you need. You see, we live in a consumer pressed society, that wants you to buy stuff. And the easiest way to sell, is to tell you “you are not enough”. “Buy this car, you will get girls” “Buy this bra you will get guys” And we are seeing it so much, that we start believing these lies. But the truth is, the makeup they are selling to make you feel prettier is the same makeup you buy to stop making you feel shittier about this lie they keep telling you. That you are not enough. And what about the movies we watch, all the shows on TV… The more I watch the more I see I need you to complete me. And yes, love is the answer, love is the key but if you can’t love yourself how could you ever love me? And loving yourself, what does that even mean? Like massages and selfies and that sort of things? The more I think about it, The more it feels weird, I have always been taught, that selflove was something to be feared. I have been taught, that arrogance is bad and that vanity it’s not good and even my bracelets are telling me how to act like Jesus would. What should I do? How should I act? I am supposed to love myself but how do I even do that? Well I got a trick that I picked up from a friend, who would notice that I was quick to defend her, when she would say something negative about herself. She would say “I am so dumb” and I would say “you are so brilliant”. She would say “I am so weak” and I would say “you are so resilient”. And when she said “I feel ugly” and I would say “you look beautiful”, She asked me why I was so dutifully filling up her cup constantly and yet treating my own cup so irresponsibly Because when I looked in the mirror my voice was quite clear: “You are ugly, you are too thin, your hair lines are seeding, you have a pimple on your chin.” And that was, when she gave me a piece of advice, that changed my life. She gave me a hug and she said: “Treat yourself like someone you loved” Treat yourself like someone you loved Now, I had been standing but I needed to be sitting, because I couldn’t believe that I had been letting myself keep forgetting that I was, who I have been looking for And deep in my chore I knew it was time to stop looking for more, until I could look through all my fear and into a mirror and see clearly, that the man looking back at me, was the only one, who can make me happy And I am already enough And I am not anymore special or unique than you That is why I am here to speak to you. You are already enough And when you start to see that, you will start to be that. your world will get brighter, Your load will get lighter, And you can see that with life you can be a lover, not a fighter and that life, you deserve it. Because you are worth it And there is no point in letting yourself keep forgetting, because no matter what you say or do you are perfect. And so today, I hope I leave you with a direction, correction, away from the flaws you see in your reflection, they aren’t flaws to me, they are simply protection against all the doubts you have of your perfection. So, start today, Take a good, long look in the mirror and say: “I am, who I have been looking for”
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